Tuesday, February 5, 2013

My Son

Yeah I'm still trying to eat better and all but I just haven't weighed myself in a while. Will post something about this next week.

But today I want to say that William said another word!!! Also, we think this sound he makes that sounds like it could be a slurring of "What's that?" really is, "What's that?" He usually makes that noise when pointing to something and then wants to inspect it. I blame the slurring of the words on me. I talk too fast -_-'

As for the word he said today, well it was Thomas. As in Thomas the train from that awesome show in the 90s (maybe late 80s, I'm not too sure). At Barnes and Noble he loves to play with the train set they have which has a bunch of the pieces to the Thomas set. Then at the Museum Without Walls (it's done by the Children's Museum and called Museum Without Walls because they don't have their own building so they just rent a space wherever they can each month and set up) he always goes back to the Thomas train set they have. My sister and I took him to a local toy store that has loads of really awesome toys. Like real toys that require some imagination to play with and are just so simple and fun. They had three tables set up, one of them with Thomas stuff on them so he played with that the whole time. I really wanted to buy him just Thomas but at first all I could find were pieces where it was a train and another car or a battery operated single piece, all of them $22. I did finally find a starter set with a simple oval track, railroad crossing sign, and Thomas and a musical caboose for $36 so I got that. Of course as we were leaving and I had to take the two trains from William's hands he threw a fit and I had to show him what I was getting him.

Opened it up in the car and he was very happy. He has been nearly inseparable from them. This morning he had the caboose in his hands and I was busy trying to use the bathroom and he was bugging me, handing me the box the set came in and making a noise that's a bit of a question. Pretty much he was asking me to open the box and take something out. I kept telling him there was nothing in it but he kept at it. Finally, when I was done, I figured maybe he wants Thomas since he's only got the caboose. So I told him I'd go get Thomas. When I handed it to him I said, "Here you go. Here's Thomas." To that he replied. "Tho-mas?" And I laughed very happily and said, "Yes! Thomas! You love Thomas, don't you?"

It was very clear. I'm still excited about it! So now he says his daycare worker's name, Thomas, What's That, and then he says two different forms of mama. One seems to have a very forced ah sound and the other seems to be more like muhmuh. The forced one is for me but he doesn't use it nearly enough for me to be completely sure, but he's starting to use it more and more. And the other pretty much means food. Any type of food he sees and wants he'll say muhmuh, including when it comes to see my boobs -_-' While he doesn't nurse anymore (all he does is sometimes does a quick suck and then that's it) he still knows they're meant for food and will pull at my shirt saying muhmuh? muhmuh? and try to pull one of my boobs out.

So he's coming along a lot better than I thought. His language development had me worried a bit because he just wasn't saying mama. But I think he was sometimes and I just didn't realize it. And he definitely knows things.

When I ask him if he's hungry or if he wants to eat he goes to his high chair. Still haven't gotten him to understand what bath means, though he loves them. It's so amazing watching him grow and learn. I really need to do more with him in terms of teaching him his numbers, letters, shapes, and colors, though. I feel like I'm seriously lacking in that. He does sometimes try to sign the alphabet with me when I sing it and sign, so there's something. But he sure is a smarty pants ^_^

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Day...I Don't Even Know

Yeah I forgot when I started this, haha. Oh well. One thing I saw today was a paper with some measurements from a few years ago. I'm not sure how long ago but it was either 2008 or later or it could have been 2004 or earlier. But pretty much I'm the same exact size now as I was when I took those measurements. One difference was my calves, I've lost a whole inch on them. That's good, haha.

Well here's today's menu:

Breakfast
-Half a serving of leftover beans with some onions and cheese
-Glass of water
-Bowl of froot loops

Lunch
-Whatever I snacked on. Some of it included some banana, a tangerine, some chips, some candy here and there. I wasn't very hungry today again.

Dinner
-Salmon (the good stuff. My sister and her husband caught this stuff a year or two ago)
-Broccoli with a little bit of cheese
-Rice
-Glass of sweet tea

Dessert
-Two homemade crepes, one with nutella and half a banana cut up on it, the other with nutella and some strawberries sliced up on it

I really need to actually eat food and stop snacking on whatever, even if it is just tiny bits. Seriously, the candy was very little. I don't know why I haven't been hungry lately. Maybe it's because I know I don't have much left on my food stamps and there's not much here but ramen, bisquick, bread, and peanut butter and jelly. William has food enough for him, though. I try not to eat the stuff I've bought for him, though I have been eating his tangerines because they seem to go bad real fast, same with the bananas. Going to grab some stuff with WIC checks tomorrow, though, not that it'll give me much of anything I can give my son except milk. I don't understand why I got 6 gallons of milk a month and he only gets about 3. He goes through them so fast and I don't give him any milk during the day except for one bottle at nap time. I've tried giving him milk in a sippy cup for the morning but he won't have anything to do with it and it just gets wasted. At night he gets a bottle for bed and he only wakes up about twice at most if he does at all so that's only two extra bottles. I give him 5oz each time, which is what I've always given him for milk, even breastmilk (no, he does not go hungry, the little porker is in perfect proportion for his height). Lately I've been giving him around 8oz for bedtime so he doesn't wake up so early for the first middle of the night waking he sometimes has.

Haha well, anyway, I think food went a bit better today. I really loved how healthy dinner was and I didn't get tons of rice. A little more than the 1/3 cup I should eat but not by much. I really need to try and have dinner like that every night. I'm thinking tomorrow will be a delicious baked chicken breast with a salad and something starchy, maybe corn or a spoonful of the leftover beans.

Well we'll see. On Monday I will weigh myself and post it here. I'm going to start trying to get some exercise in. I asked a friend of mine if she'd like to do the belly dancing DVD with me after school on Tues and Thurs and sometimes in the morning the other three days during the week. I actually meant to go do that today but completely forgot, though I will say that lugging boxes around and up and down stairs was a workout. It also made me realize how weak my stomach muscles have gotten. They've always been my strongest muscles but I guess I just allowed myself to relax too much while pregnant so my lower back was killing me after doing all the mess with these piddly boxes.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Weight and William

I think I could stand to get some William posts in here if I'm going to post often about my weight loss stuff.

The little man woke up good and happy this morning. I always try to get in there to get him out of his crib when he's happy but I don't always make it in time. I wish he understood about calling for me. I'm not even sure he really understands that mama is me. My sister thinks he does but that's because when he wants to eat something or drink something but it's closed up he brings it to me saying what sounds like mama, but I think it's actually mum-mum, which is a rice cracker thing. He has yet to actually call me mama and it makes me a bit sad. He can say his daycare worker's name just fine. If I had him call me by my actual name then he'd be able to call me because apparently the Z on the woman's name is supposed to be pronounced like an S so it comes out sounding like Sarah and that was his first word, his daycare worker's name -_-'

I sometimes worry about his language skills. He hears just fine but really, he can only say his daycare worker's name, mum-mum, and the other day I got him to saying pop. He's a boy of few words. He doesn't babble a lot either. He's a pretty quiet little thing when it comes to talking but he does squeal a lot and will scream at things when hes angry. If he wants something he usually just points at it. I know he understands things, though. I ask him if he wants to eat, making the sign for it as well, and if he does, he'll nod and go to his high chair. I ask him if he wants some of my water, making the sign for it, he'll nod and hold his hands out so he can hold the glass with me. He knows what a light is, I've got him knowing what his head is by singing the head, shoulders, knees, and toes song. He's a bright boy but just doesn't want to speak. I keep wondering if it's something to do with me. I speak fairly fast and I always worried that my children would have a hard time speaking because of that. I've begun reading aloud to him again, not trying to make him sit down with me, just let him play and all. The point to it being that I read slowly and carefully and he at least hears words as they're supposed to sound and at the speed they're supposed to be produced. Heh, when I say slowly, I mean slow for me. It's hard for me to slow down because I feel like I'm speaking in slow motion and it's irritating, but when I sing or read aloud so people can understand me, it comes out at a more normal pace, which, for me, is slow.

I know some children just don't want to speak much. The doula I had told me her son was like that. He could communicate just fine and he used signs when it was more difficult to show what he wanted but he did eventually get over than and begin speaking, though he still doesn't say much. I hope that's what's going on with William.

Other than that, today he was all right before his nap. Afterwards he was a bit cranky and by 5:30pm he was really working on my last nerve. At 6:30 I stuck him in the bath for the second time today and he was very happy about that. Just before he was being incredibly whiny and getting irritated with everything. After the bath he sat with me on the couch for a bit and then I put his pjs on and he was just so tired that when I accidentally knocked him over when trying to get into the kitchen he just started crying. So I didn't bother warming his milk. Just handed it to him and took him to bed. He was out in minutes. I wonder if he's having a growth spurt because he's been like that the past few days. He's just so tired that he doesn't try to stay away in his crib, he just passes right out.

Well onto weight loss stuff.

Breakfast
-Bowl of dry coco pebbles cereal

Lunch
-Nothing

Dinner
-2 Servings of beans with onions and cheese
-2 biscuits (one with butter, one with jam)
-glass of milk

I wasn't really hungry today. I did snack on some things like a few animal crackers with some peanut butter, some grapes, a tangerine, two pieces of french bread. And I had two glasses of water. Oh and a few skittles and a small piece of chocolate.

Hmm...(weight loss stuff)

I just checked my weight, curious, and it says that I've lost 2lbs but have gained 1% body fat. Have I somehow lost muscle mass in less than a week? I don't see how I could have. Oh well, the body fat percentage is more of an interesting thing to look at. As long as I get rid of the excess and have what's left in the right places, I don't care what percentage I have.

I don't remember which day was the last time I updated here so I'm not going to bother trying to remember everything I've eaten those days. I'll just put up what I've eaten today and I'll stop being lazy and just take my stupid measurements.

Breakfast
-Homemade personal pepperoni pizza (yeah, I know, pizza for breakfast but I was at a lost for what to make and I had leftover sauce I made the day before)
-Glass of sweet tea

Lunch
-Whatever I managed to snack on throughout the day. The pizza filled me up quite a bit. I know I had a tangerine, a few grapes, and a few animal crackers with, yes, I'll admit, a little bit of cake frosting haha.

Dinner
-1 philly cheesesteak stuffed red pepper with some sweet bbq sauce
-A few potato chips
-A glass of water

The stuffed red pepper was only half of one with a slice of swiss cheese in the bottom (next time I make these it'll be provolone) and sauteed onions and mushrooms with some strips of roast beef I got sliced at the deli all heated up with some butter and minced garlic. It's good but I'll add some salt the next time, it was kind of bland. Aside from the potato chips it was a nice, low-carb meal. I could have eaten more but I wasn't interested in eating more than I did. Overall I didn't eat much today, just wasn't hungry.

I'm going to juice some but I don't think I'll do the juice fast anymore. I don't have a lot left in my food stamps to go buying so many expensive fruits and veggies. Can't believe it went so fast and the month is only half over. I have to be careful with how I spend the rest. At least my student loans should be here by the end of this week so I don't have to worry about that anymore.

One thing I really need to do is exercise but I just don't want to do any at home, not with the new neighbors downstairs. I could go to my university's gym but I'd really rather not go alone. If only I didn't live in stupid Alaska I could have a friend go on a walk with me. Blah. I REALLY want to get rid of the weight. I know my cholesterol must be ridiculously high and my poor pancreas is probably getting exhausted. I need to do this, get healthy, and change my lifestyle. I need to stop being so sedentary or else I'm doomed to have diabetes and heart problems when I get older like the rest of my relatives seem to have. I have to do this!

Oh! Back when I was 16 and dating the one guy I was with for years, I used to complain about eating right or exercising sometimes. He'd look at me and say, "Just go do it. Don't think about it, just do it." I tell you what, Nike really had something there. That was how I got myself up off the couch on days I just didn't feel like doing the belly dancing I decided to do for PE. I knew that once I started it, I'd not stop until I was done with everything (like the 200 sit-ups, 12 push-ups, and stretches I did after the DVD ended). But now, that slogan isn't cutting it for me. I had school and a boyfriend to do this stuff for. Yeah, doing it for myself should be more of a motivator, but it's not. I've had years to become comfortable with being overweight, I much prefer to sit still and watch or read something. Of course, as a real little child I was the complete opposite.

But I did see something on Pinterest that pops into my head whenever I really badly want a soda or something. It's something like, "Don't give up what you've always wanted for something you want at the moment." That phrase kept me from grabbing a Coke at my mom's yesterday though I really, really wanted one. I can have a soda when I've lost several pounds.

Anyways, on to the measurements:

Bust: 47 1/2in
Underbust: 40 1/2in (haha according to most bra size chats I'd be about a 48 G lofl! I wear a C cup actually)
Arms: 16in
Waist: 38in
Stomach: 45 1/2in
Hips: 50in
Thighs (thickest part): 29 1/2 (scary, they're almost as big around as my waist O_O)
Calves: 16 1/2in

So there you have it, the measurements. I remember my calves being 12in after losing weight years ago.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Day 4

Real quick before I go to bed.

Breakfast
-Protein smoothie (milk, 1/2 a banana, 1 scoop protein powder, some chocolate ovaltine since I don't have coco powder)

Lunch
-McDonalds (most of a medium sweet tea, most of a medium fry, two plain cheeseburgers)

Dinner
-Homemade chicken nuggets
-Glass of sweet tea

There were several glasses of water, mostly in the afternoon and evening. I know I drank at least four in the last three hours.

And I was supposed to go to bed 3 hours ago -_-

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Detox

I have been having a little bit of trouble staying away from the junk. I find myself sitting here thinking about it far too much. So I decided to try a juice fast to help clean out the bad toxins from all the years of junk and fast food and to jump start the weight loss.

I was at the store a little bit ago and it's been a while since I tried to just incorporate the juice into my day just to have something really good for me in there so I couldn't remember how much of everything I need. Gonna go look at the recipe again and figure it out then write it all down so I can go back just before I run out of this stuff, which won't be long.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Day 3

I did okay again today. While I did have some junk food I didn't eat much.

Breakfast
-Breakfast pizza (croissant rolls, eggs, sausage, peppers, onions, mushrooms, jalapenos, and cheese)
-Glass of water
-Glass of sweet tea

Lunch
-Nibbled on popcorn and twizzlers
-Three glasses of water over the course of a few hours

Dinner
-Red beans and rice leftovers
-Glass of water

Dessert
-Two pieces (a few hours apart) of pumpkin spice cake with chocolate chips and butter cream frosting

Snack
-Bowl of coco crispies

I did have two swallows of my sister's Coke and there was more water interspersed throughout there.

Haven't taken my measurements yet, I know I'm being really lazy about it, haha. And tonight I'm going to bed earlier than I normally do.